Sunday, 13 April 2008

fear

Being afraid of loosing my roots?

2 comments:

jakov said...

i remember, being a teenager and thinking about myself, at one moment question of belonging to certain nation started to concern me... actually, i was somehow unhappy with the idea that all my life will be pre-arranged and that the whole arrangement, destiny in some way, will happen far from any possibility of choosing the nation-to-belong, questioning it’s let’s say qaulities, thinking about some others, etc. ...
and the idea that with all my nature and personality i would maybe much more fit some other nationality was the most frustrating at all.. i was thinking of course that my temperament would suit some spanish person, and my look was more palestinian or egyptian..
in some way, it’s like your parents and family...
you cannot choose them or it and in certain period you will without any doubt start to like some sides of it and of course, being critical about it-them is some kind of necessity but it doesn’t mean that you don’t like it or that you do not identify with it in any way
and of course, even with officialy being somebody else by passport, your original nationality will never leave you.. and in that sense roots are not abou what’s written on paper but how you feel about them and how you interpret them..

Anonymous said...

The roots - something that you have till the end of your life. Being afraid of loosing the roots means being afraid of missing living in the county where these roots originaly comes from, maybe. Having roots and living in the same place is not the same as having the roots somewhere far, far away.

I don't think this blog is so much about the national identity and the real sense of "loosing the feeling of being Serbian", if I can interpretate in such a way the reactions of the people written till now. It is more about a situation where the official paper puts you in a position to think about all that. I am sure that no one can deny his/her origin, I don't believe people can start REALLY feeling and behaving completely by taking the "other" identity, in any sense. Of course, one can decide if he/she about the way his/her children will be raised - thier sense of your roots depend on your ability to keep the contact with what is happening "there" and your will to learn the others about the same.

But, in the end, this blog could be seen also as a charming game (counting) where the sensless of getting the official paper seems as if it will change something, while it will not change so much...